I had a dream last night. I was going to write this then but I was so tired, I decided to put it off until today. However, it stuck in my mind enough that I dreamt about it. I was standing inside a large church, at the end of a long white carpet. Although I could see that there were people standing around me, and I could hear the buzz of the crowd, they seemed distant, almost as if they weren't even there. I stood alone, and although I didn't fully grasp what was happening, I was nervous. Everything seemed to vibrant, the colors of the clothing that the people around me wore, although the faces weren't clear. I couldn't figure out why I was nervous and that's when the double doors at the end of the long, pristine white carpet opened and out came the most beautiful thing that I had ever seen. I stood in awe as my girlfriend walked down the carpet in a breathtaking dress, on the arm of her father, and as she walked into the room, it fell silent. And for the briefest of moments, there were only two people standing there, she and I...
Then I woke up, dazed and confused. Yet as I looked up at the time, I could tell, even in the dark that I was still wearing the same silly grin that I wore in the dream.
What brought this dream on? Well, since I had a lovely three day weekend, Sunday was just an extended Saturday for me so I got up that morning, did my usual routine, spending a little extra time on my battle scars from the zombie horde and my girlfriend from the day before and I texted Elli to see what the plans for today were. I was a little hungry and so I decided that I'd grab a bite and then head out to see her as her parents were coming home from their vacation today, and I figured if there was any last minute things needed to finish before they got there, I'd be able to help out a little.
When I reached her, she told me she was headed out to Qdoba for lunch and that I could meet her at the Summit and then we could head out to her house. I decided to grab a quick burger from Five Guys Burgers and Fries and a drink from Speedway and be on my way. Due to a lack of communication on my part (I'm getting better but I still have my moments...), we ended up meeting at the Starbucks on the way to La Grange instead and I prepared to deal with a slightly annoyed Elli as I told her that I'd wait for her at Speedway and yet I left to head to her house... (...So blame it on my ADD, baby... -Awolnation)
When she arrived, I was shocked to see that she was wearing shorts! Now, for those of you who don't already know, Elsa never wears shorts for some strange reason and we had a kinda long conversation about it in the past. Well, after much debating, she bought a pair but still had yet to wear them (much to my dislike: I like her legs ;) but I digress) so to see her in the brought a silly grin to my face, which doesn't really work too well when the person you're grinning at is a little pissed off at you. However, the issue was resolved rather quickly and we were back to grinning and smiling and such at each other by the time we got to the pharmacy to say hello to her other family.
We eventually get back to her house where we sit down in the living room to eat our respective lunches and watch a little TV. Now, before I go any further, I need to mention that the show that we were watching was a show called Four Weddings. If you haven't see it, I'll sum it up right quick: Four brides attend each other's weddings and grade them based on a variety of categories and the one with the highest score from among her peers wins a nice honeymoon. Got it? Okay, moving on.
As we're sitting here, Elli turns to me and says, "Don't freak out but I started looking at planning a wedding." Now, as strange that may sound to some, I wasn't exactly surprised. Not sure what that says about me and how I feel about us getting married but I know that it wasn't shocking or anything to freak out about. In fact, a part of me smiled when she mentioned it. After telling her that it didn't freak me out, we continued our day, watching Four Weddings and looking at venues for a reception. I never realized how little I knew about planning a wedding and although it's still a ways off, it was good to be able to look at the different places and plan for who's going to show up and the rest of the event's festivities.
But the part that made me grin the broadest was the fact that while we sat there, looking at all of the different wedding components, the little voices of doubt and worry and fear in my head were all quiet. No clamoring that we're not ready or are you sure. Everything just felt... normal about it.
Here's to hoping that the bastards stay quiet as I inch ever closer to becoming the person that I'd want to be...